Apologies

Ok, I'm sorry to everyone I've been pushing away (for the past... X months)... it's just this thing I do when I'm feeling left out and like the world and everyone in it are passing me by (when I should be trying even harder to be a part of something, instead of giving up). I don't do it on purpose. 'I'm leaving- so why not just mentally check out now so it's easier when I'm physically gone too? I'm not going to hang out with you anymore on a regular basis, so why not just make it easier on us all and quit now?' Sorry, for some reason thats how I think, and I don't want to! Why I put myself into the "I'm a crappy friend" zone on purpose will cease now. I'm going to make the best of my last week here and not be such a sourpuss (I don't like this word, but it fits).